I'm nervous now... but my friends, mostly Michael, Jennifer, and Anthony, have given me reassurance.

So, I plan to spend the next few days with friends and family studying and running. It's cold outside today... which isn't normal for us. I live in the tropics so it's usually hot here.

In an effort to keep myself calm I've been listening to this guys mix [link]
It's electronic jazz.

I've been thinking about how different my life would be right now if I went to NHIA instead of joining the Navy. I imagine I wouldn't have lost all of the weight I have, I'd be worried about money all the time. I'd miss so much of the things I've done the past year and I wouldn't have met the people I've met. It does make me sad that I dont do anything with art like I used to... these days I just pose for the picture and I'm done... I dont drawn anymore. That needs to change.

I will take up my art again.

This might be my last journal for awhile so. Keep up the good work everyone! Never stop doing your art, never stop expressing yourselves, and remain optimistic~

All my love
Erin~